My name is Fazila Sohail. I was very nervous when I became pregnant for the second time because my first baby boy was only 1 year old when it happened.

At that time, my hubby held my hand and said that God gave us a new baby, and this baby is God’s blessing so you shouldn’t be afraid.

Time has passed and we were both very excited as we were going to welcome a baby girl.

I was in my fourth month when one night I suddenly felt pain in my pelvic area. At first I thought it’s a normal pain but when I woke up in the morning, I felt some like something sharp has hit me from the inside… and I started bleeding…

I had a strong feeling that I was about to lose my baby. I was terrified and hopeless, and didn’t know what to do.

We rushed to hospital, and after examination, the doctor said that there is no chance in saving the baby.

I burst into tears…

I didn’t want to lose my baby. I had spent 4 long months with this little creature growing inside me, while I was falling in love with it, and I didn’t want anyone to take that away from me.

I was helpless as I spent the whole night in observation.

I felt that the hospital staff were trying to take my baby away. I wasn’t ready to allow them to snatch my baby from me. I wanted to shout… I wanted to run away… but I was feeling helpless.

The night I spent was very horrible. I had lost my baby and it felt like they took it away from me. Forever away …

The next day, I shifted to another room in hospital, and there I found my entire family coming to visit. Everyone was there, but I felt like I was empty and my whole life was meaningless.

Up until I heard a little cute voice calling me mama. My son was there, and he came and he gave me a big squeezed hug.

When I saw my son’s smile, I smiled back to him by default. His beautiful smile made me forget the pain I was in. His small hands grabbing my arms made me feel like I was alive again.

I still remember my baby that I lost. But my son gave me strength to live, be happy and play with him with joy again.

I know that I will meet my baby in heaven one day.

 

This article is contributed by Fazila Sohail